In my world, things certainly have changed, all for the positive! March 19th I completed my journey with my final surgery. Now, simply living the way I intended to from a very early age. I am much happier being the woman I am than where I was in the past. Life is much better. I'm dime a dozen now, no longer "Best of both worlds", I'm simply me. My past story: I’ve fought being Transgendered most of my life. I knew, I am, but wouldn’t admit it to myself, or others. I locked myself away in the depths of my mind, locked her behind a large solid door with huge locks. She screamed to get out, but I held her down. I wouldn’t show her to anyone, for fear of being found out. I carved a mask of masculinity, and wore it with pride. Once in a while, I’d be called out for being feminine, my reaction, to continue to work on the mask, strengthen it. I was slowing killing myself, from the inside out. The freight train of thought about being Michelle was so strong, yet, I did my best to hide it from others. Now, looking back, I’m not sure that I hid it well. At about 9 years old I realized that there was something different about me. I would imagine that I was one of the girls in my school, that I would fall asleep and then wake up in the morning being her. In her house, her parents, her clothes - everything. This imagination went as far as stealing her life away from her, and making it mine. I didn’t understand the feelings, and I looked upon them as being sick and twisted. I didn’t like thinking of myself that way, so I tried to stop thinking about it. Where I am now, is life is an adventure, nothing remains the same - we, humans beings, if being true to ourselves are in a constant stage of change. We all need to embrace ourselves and live... The journey continues...

Mi persona ideal: I would like to meet someone whom I can build a foundation with. That foundation built on Trust, builds up to friendship, relationship, marriage - what ever it may be.

I am looking for a whole person, someone whom is sound enough to be able to bring themselves into something and do it. Someone who wants a relationship and understands that it might take time to build. I have alot to give to that person.